SelfHealers Soundboard

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A global, community-based healing experience created by Dr.Nicole LePera +Jenna Weakland. Each week, we host raw, unscripted, open conversations about the things we are REALLY dealing with on the journey of facing our pasts and becoming our best Selves. Together, as community, we create resonance with "strangers" around the world as we collectively witness our own triggers, habits, traumas, and inherent wisdom. This is, and always will be, an ad free experience. Subscribe to our SelfHealers Soundboard YouTube channel to view these weekly podcasts with (captioned) video and connect with us and each other in the comments. New episodes every Sunday at 12 PM PST.

Recent Episodes
  • Episode 99: How To Create Authentic Friendships
    Aug 13, 2023 – 48:33
  • Episode 98: How To Forgive Yourself
    Aug 6, 2023 – 57:14
  • Episode 97: How to Create Safety In Your Body
    Jul 30, 2023 – 32:53
  • Episode 96: Healing From Emotional Addiction
    Jul 23, 2023 – 01:11:10
  • Episode 95: HOW TO BE THE LOVE YOU SEEK
    Jul 16, 2023 – 33:29
  • Episode 94: Meet Your Emotions
    Jul 9, 2023 – 35:44
  • Episode 93: Our Ego Stories
    Jul 2, 2023 – 52:58
  • Episode 92: Meet Your Shadow
    Jun 25, 2023 – 33:02
  • Episode 91: An Honest Conversation On Father’s Day
    Jun 18, 2023 – 01:34:04
  • Episode 90: How To Do Ego Work
    Jun 11, 2023 – 39:26
  • Episode 89: How To Reparent Part 2
    Jun 4, 2023 – 44:14
  • Episode 88: How To Reparent Yourself
    May 28, 2023 – 33:30
  • Episode 87: How To Know If Someone Is For You
    May 21, 2023 – 44:35
  • EPISODE 86: How To Embrace Change
    May 7, 2023 – 23:08
  • Episode 85: Finding Your Purpose And Passion
    Apr 30, 2023 – 55:18
  • Episode 84: How To Release Our Anger
    Apr 23, 2023 – 53:15
  • Episode 83: Allowing Our Anger
    Apr 16, 2023 – 56:19
  • Episode 82: How To Gift Future Generations
    Apr 9, 2023 – 26:08
  • Episode 81: Everything Inner Child Part 2
    Mar 26, 2023 – 52:44
  • Episode 80: Everything You Need To Know About Your Inner Child
    Mar 19, 2023 – 26:16
  • Episode 79: Does Your Inner Critic Take You On A Shame Cycle?
    Mar 12, 2023 – 34:19
  • Episode 78: Where Our Beliefs Come From
    Mar 5, 2023 – 46:44
  • Episode 77: How Childhood Shapes Our Conditioned Mind
    Feb 24, 2023 – 24:52
  • Episode 76: Mind-Body Tools for Healing
    Feb 19, 2023 – 46:19
  • Episode 75: How To Get Unstuck
    Feb 12, 2023 – 36:36
  • Episode 74: How To Break Through Self-Doubt
    Feb 5, 2023 – 24:55
  • Episode 73: Feeling Your Nervous System
    Jan 29, 2023 – 37:29
  • Episode 72: What Fear Teaches Us
    Jan 22, 2023 – 36:50
  • Episode 71: Meet Your Habit Self
    Jan 15, 2023 – 34:50
  • Episode 70: The Power Of Living With Intention
    Jan 8, 2023 – 30:35
  • Episode 69: Emotional Hangovers
    Dec 18, 2022 – 19:17
  • Episode 68: How To Deal With FOMO
    Dec 11, 2022 – 33:08
  • Episode 67: Healing During The Holiday Season
    Dec 4, 2022 – 26:27
  • Episode 66: Spiritual Bypassing
    Nov 27, 2022 – 28:33
  • Episode 65: How To Create Self Rituals
    Nov 20, 2022 – 28:22
  • Episode 64: Why We Compare Ourselves To Other People
    Nov 13, 2022 – 28:30
  • Episode 63: How To Have A Healthy Relationship With Social Media
    Nov 6, 2022 – 20:56
  • Episode 62: How To Hold Space
    Oct 30, 2022 – 24:36
  • Episode 61: How To Heal From Heartbreak
    Oct 23, 2022 – 28:39
  • Episode 60: When We Lie To Manage Our Perception
    Oct 16, 2022 – 24:50
  • Episode 59: Have You Been Bullied?
    Oct 9, 2022 – 34:50
  • Episode 58: Are You Holding Onto Resentment?
    Oct 2, 2022 – 21:46
  • Episode 57: How To Deal With Regret
    Sep 25, 2022 – 40:19
  • Episode 56: In Conversation With Gabor Maté: The Myth Of Normal—Healing Trauma In A Toxic Culture
    Sep 18, 2022 – 48:55
  • Episode 55: The Difference Between Enabling And Compassion
    Sep 11, 2022 – 38:18
  • Episode 54: How To Practice Nervous System Awareness In Relationships
    Sep 4, 2022 – 49:45
  • Episode 53: Breaking Dysfunctional Patterns
    Aug 28, 2022 – 38:30
  • Episode 52: How to Validate Yourself
    Aug 21, 2022 – 22:43
  • Episode 51: How To Feel Hopeful During A Difficult Time
    Aug 14, 2022 – 33:14
  • Episode 50: How To Deal With Toxic Situations
    Aug 7, 2022 – 33:20
Recent Reviews
  • old lady is right
    Please come back!!!!!
    Im late to the party but this could go on for days!! lol. I came apron this podcast a couple of months ago. Love it!!!! I have been working on myself for the past 10 years. I love how you all explain everything. It helps to understand why we feel the way we feel from our traumatic past. This has helped me to heal. Please come back!!!
  • abreitton
    Hits deep and hits home
    Jenna and Nicole have this incredible ability to articulate and explain concepts that land and deeply resonate with me. I appreciate how vulnerable, open, and raw both of them are in sharing their past, family histories, struggles, and their healing journeys — it makes this show so relatable and it softens any protective walls I have within me. All of their insights and teachings are greatly impactful. 10/10 show! Thank you both so much!!!
  • tin@m@nn
    Grateful for Jenna’s perspective
    I just wanted to voice how valuable i find jenna’s perspective to be. i find myself relating to her past experiences more than Dr. Nicole’s & to be able to hear her talk about it really makes me feel not so alone. i find the combination of the two different experiences/attachment styles/inner child archetypes, what have you so helpful & i could not be more grateful. i skimmed the reviews & was really saddened by the way people are speaking about Jenna & wanted to make sure she knows how impactful her sharing her experience has been for me & seeing how the two of them navigate having such different experiences in their healing & relationship. i feel it really mirrors my wife & me. (my wife being able to relate to Dr. Nicole & me being able to relate to Jenna) i can’t begin to thank the two of you enough. it really creates a safe space of belonging & being seen for me that i struggle with normally
  • Sckat28
    THROUPLE??! UMM BYE!!!
    Found this and was enjoying the first few episodes until they mentioned being in a throuple with each other! Yeah, no! I will never value any of your advice knowing you’re people who believe in throuples! 🙄 Buh Bye!! 👋
  • mariahweil
    Jenna is a human
    I really appreciate this podcast. I’ve found it extremely helpful in my healing journey. I see so many reviews devaluing Jenna, and I can relate to feeling somewhat unsettled sometimes by her passion when sharing. What I’ve realized is that her authenticity and trust in herself feels threatening to me. It makes me realize my inability to trust myself to show passion and realness with others. How much I still censor myself out of fear. How I only take advice and trust the people who have “credentials”. We can learn about ourselves from anyone, anywhere. Jenna provides a perspective, not a “clinical” one, a human one. Maybe ask why she “bugs” you so much, instead of devaluing her. The information and life experience she shares IS valuable. Dr. Nicole, Jenna THANK YOU BOTH.
  • Milkshake_Cookies101
    More from Dr. Nicole pls
    I’m clinically licensed in the field and I would like to hear more from Dr. Nicole, less from Jenna. Thank you
  • nik e s
    Where did this podcast go?
    It’s been over a month since a new episode aired. What’s going on? I hope it comes back soon.
  • Ameliaj15
    Cut Jenna Out
    I love Dr. Nicole and her work. Jenna on the other hand…. Oh jeeze. She has no credentials whatsoever and it shows. Plus, it’s hard to receive information from someone who has mooched off of people her whole life (living off peoples couches, having other people pay for her airline tickets, and now she’s mooching off of Nicole’s success). She dominates the conversation and steers it wherever she wants for however long she wants. I wanted to love this and have tried so hard but I can’t with Jenna. This podcast would be so much better without her.
  • hannah12342322
    Jenna sharing
    I like how Jenna shares her personal stories, and doesn’t stop even if it brings up difficult emotions for her. She really expresses all her feelings—even difficult ones—with self-acceptance and without shame, and that’s very inspiring.
  • Madsinger123
    Real Therapy for Real Healing
    I have never felt so understood by a psych professional - ever. I know many people who might say, “I can’t do therapy…It won’t work for me because I can just outsmart the therapist.” To all those people, I say: This podcast (as well as the accompanying workbook) is your answer. It’s extraordinary. If everyone had this wisdom, it would change the world for the better.
  • Priority to Heal
    How to forgive yourself
    Excellent podcast! Super healing and re-invigorating! I needed to hear “I am not responsible for an adult’s choices.” My ex-husbands self destruction alcoholism created a dying liver and black and blue body. I could no longer live to save him my constant state of flight or fight and hyper vigilance completely depleted me. In the end with worry gone I felt mentally slow. Only to grow into my new “normal” state where I could function. My nervous system balanced and functioning. I am able to be present and develop growth daily. Your podcast weekly is so helpful, relevant and healing to help me be able to show up as my best self. Thank you.
  • Lily Anna 41
    Great but repetitive
    Okay, so I LOVE your content and clarity. However you say “Again” every 30 seconds and I can’t unhear it. I am unsure why, other than you feel you are often repeating yourself? Maybe episodes should be 30 mins if this is the case. It has made me delete them without fully listening, which is a bummer because your content is so useful.
  • Emlllly
    Thoughts
    I love the book “How To Do The Work” it has helped me immensely. As well as Nicole’s earlier YouTube videos. I am an AMFT nearing licensure. The schooling, work sites and training I have undergone have developed me personally and professionally it feels off to have Jenna speaking in a way that implies she has the training and experience to teach others in a therapeutic manner. I would like to hear from Nicole more in the episodes.
  • katkatkat21
    Reparenting is repairing
    Thanks for giving words to so much of our trauma and learning to heal
  • Dragon loving fan
    Invalidating
    To be completely honest, I find it triggering and shaming listening to Jenna talk about how great she is and how wonderful her life turned out despite having a difficult childhood. I am happy for her and she is very fortunate to have not found herself lost and adrift and in pain from her past, but it’s so invalidating listening to someone talk about how easily they turned their adversity into achievements.
  • Joanna SLC, UT
    Thank you and a question
    Firstly I want to thank you so much for all this beautiful work you have been putting out here. I am 36 and have been struggling most of my life with what I now know is childhood trauma. I came upon these podcasts through a friend, and had been listening to them out of order to get a feel if it was for me. Turns out it is very much so relatable for me, and has been a very helpful tool in my journey to heal and discover myself again. Thank you for helping me validate all my feelings, and making me see myself. After years of looking to be seen, to be loved, to be heard… It was me who needed to do it for me. So thank you to Nicole, Jenna & Lolly: I will be forever grateful. I am currently on episode 12: reconnecting with family after taking space. Though I am not at this point currently with my family. I am more at the point of setting boundaries. I am having a little bit of a conflict of what to do. In my heart, I do believe that for now (and quite possibly forever) I do not wish to have any relationship with my parents. I know they will be who they are and will not change, and I’ve excepted it. However, for me it’s not aligned with my values. I am working on forgiveness for them, but I’ve come to the conclusion that I do not love them. I just loved the idea of what family meant, and they aren’t in that meaning for me. My problem is, I have two children (5 & 7). Now before I set on my journey to self-awareness I was very much for family. And family growing up meant blood is blood, and that bond ties you forever. My parents are immigrants from Poland. So that meant we had no outside family here. Just us. So when I had kids, I longed for them to have grandparents. So I made that possible by devoting my life to taking them to their grandparents to form that bonding relationship. That seemed to work when they were babies, but now my kids don’t care to see them as much anymore. I see similar patterns of growing up being used on my children by their grandparents. I don’t push them. If they don’t want to, then I honor their feelings. I keep a child-appropriate open dialogue with my children about feelings and how we deal with them… but how do I go forward? If I feel I need the space from my parents, but maybe my children want to be with them (which I am okay with)… I guess how do I juggle this? And am I setting a good example for them? Do they understand at this age, or am I just confusing them? How do I explain to my children that I do not love my parents, I do not wish to have a relationship with them, but I am okay with my kids seeing them. I am so afraid that my children will want to please me and therefore also not want a relationship with my folks.
  • OhhMissBeliever
    Confused
    I wonder why Jenna does most of the talking when she’s not the licensed therapist. She talks way too much and has no real educational professional experience to back her. It always the same with her every time. Her past, her family, etc. It feels like we are listening to her therapy session with Nicole. I Would love to hear more professional input from Dr. Nicole. I’m beginning to question the doc’s Legitimacy. Putting low reviews that are new under older reviews shows you know you aren’t capable of making your podcast the best you can. Just listened to another podcast of Jenna’s past yet again. Nicole, Are you in there ? Blink twice if you want to interrupt Jenna and give us real facts that will help
  • Ttina1975
    Highly Recommend!!!
    There are no words to describe how Episode 79 connected with me. It’s like they knew that this is what I’m struggling with. They pin pointed the inner critic (and it’s origin) in a way that finally clicked. Opening up about their own vulnerable experiences creates a beautiful energy that is comforting. Thank you!
  • C_Collado
    Life changing
    I cannot even begin to describe what How To Do The Work has meant to me and for me - as well as this podcast. There are so many threads to your story, Nicole, that are so very similar to mine - sometimes I just cry listening to you because I’m so grateful for a human that can language your experience so beautifully that it can bring such healing to so many. Thank you so much, Jenna, for your passion for this movement & how effortlessly you speak about it. I am so so grateful to you both. AND LOLLY 😘…. Love from Mississippi.. , Anna Collado
  • adipreuv
    Thank you BOTH for this amazing podcast
    I stumbled upon this podcast a few weeks ago and have been working my way through all your episodes and wow it’s changed my life. Hearing both your stories and insights has allowed me to reframe my own past traumas and to tune into my inner child more than I have ever been able to do. I find Jenna’s voice just as valuable as Dr. Nicole’s, as she exemplifies authenticity in an incredibly vulnerable space, so thank you Jenna for sharing stories that are close to your heart. Catching up on your episodes has become an important part of my morning routine and something I look forward to every day. Thank you Jenna and Nicole!!
  • Brandi Alexandria
    Thank you all for everything you do
    Thank you all! I’m so grateful to have found Dr.Nicole and her books. I was originally just a follower on Twitter. I purchased both books and the way they’ve opened my eyes has been incredible!! The podcast is *chefs kiss* amazing and beautiful. Listening to you all is helping me even more! I’m really beginning to see the ways in which Ive chosen the people and circumstances in this life based off my childhood traumas. I’m now empowered to heal these traumas, many of which I’ve thought would haunt me forever! Many many thanks and much love I offer you all!!! 🫶🏼🫶🏼🫶🏼 I love and thank you for everything you do!
  • letterwriter21
    interesting and helpful show
    I learn a lot from this show and always feel better after listening. My only concern is I wish Dr. Nicole would talk more as she has the credentials to give professional advice. As much as I admire and appreciate Jenna’s vulnerability when sharing, it seems she analyzes Nicole alot and gives advice like a therapist and it is distracting for me.
  • Meghan_hartford
    Wish I found this sooner
    I just read “how to do the work” and started listening to this podcast. Seriously never realized how unconsciously I was living. I have benefited greatly from hearing Jenna’s experience, I believe she is a great example of love.
  • Hartman235
    I finally feel understood
    I love you two! So glad I found this podcast. I resonate with both of you and can empathize with most, if not everything you discuss. I’m also enjoying learning about our Nervous System! So interesting! I now listen to you every day as part of my healing process.
  • Dave in progress!
    Basic but valuable
    The podcast is extremely helpful and consistent.Each show is linked to another driving home the same principles be aware, be truthful, be kind. Basic stuff that I and many never learned.
  • Lmd810
    A gem in the sea of podcasts
    I absolutely love this podcast and the different experiences of Nicole and Jenna! Sometimes I feel like I resonate more with one than the other, but whether it is Nicole or Jenna changes depending on the subject! I love both of their points of views and ways of communicating and helping me through my personal self healing journey.
  • Jessie Janka
    Love this podcast!
    I just discovered this podcast and all I can think is why didn’t I find it sooner! I feel like the two episodes I’ve listened to so far were written just for me. It’s refreshing to know that I’m not alone. Thank you!!
  • Wilde_Woman_
    Grateful
    Just discovered this podcast and wow, I am so grateful. Thank you ❤️
  • elizw1213
    Amazing Podcast!
    100% recommend this podcast for anyone who is dealing with trauma or on their journey of self healing. Their podcasts have helped me SO MUCH! I’ve truly been able to understand not only myself, but the people around me and why I feel like I do. Thank you ladies for everything!!
  • Go peaches
    Healing Journey
    This podcast is phenomenal! It has touched so many issues that have come up for me on my healing journey, and they’ve been addressed with great detail. The insight is given in such a real way. I appreciate the honesty and devotion you all give. I highly recommend this podcast to anyone wishing to develop a deeper relationship with themselves and others. Thank you!
  • Mods real
    This podcast is Life
    Not only do Nicole and Jenna speak from personal experiences but from a place of authenticity. I can appreciate that there are different topics that I can listen to or go back to if I am struggling with one in particular. This show is encouraging as well as inspiring. I’ve read the book which I enjoyed immensely. I recommend it all of the time it has definitely helped me in my journey. Happy to say I brought it for my younger sister. Your value to the mental health field is one that is unparalleled. I look forward to what’s next. Thank you 💛
  • Footprintz86
    The support 😱
    This is by FAR one of my fav podcasts!! The amazing knowledge and personal stories just make it that much more powerful!! When I need a pick me up or to know I’m not alone this is where I come. So grateful for the amazing information and compassion shared by Dr. Nicole and Jena 💜🤍💜
  • EWF14
    My favorite podcast
    I love those podcasts so much and so many of the topics pertain to my life! It is all Not always easy to listen to but I know it helps me to do the work and become a better person. Can you do a podcast on adult FOMO and how to manage it ?
  • Disney 🧿
    Heartbreak episode ..
    I enjoyed this so much. I also lost my brother to overdose.. listening to this really put me in myself to feel. I was crying so hard with so much joy.. I was able to feel it and not feel embarrassed to show emotions.. I’m also a psychic and a medium I still get to be with my brother but it’s just not the same I don’t get to hold him and laugh with him anymore.. but listening to the two of you has helped me more then you know. I truly appreciate and enjoy you guys.. THANK YOU ❤️❤️
  • sagenatoh
    Show up for yourself
    This podcast has helped me so much! I love the dynamic. Jenna adds so much to it! I appreciate these ladies’ voicing themselves and showing their vulnerabilities. This podcast has become part of me “showing up for myself”. Thank you so much!!
  • Dedominicis5
    Doing the Work
    Love this podcast as an adjunct to doing my inner work needed to heal, expand and grow..
  • Brannnng
    Needed This!
    Y’all don’t even know how much I needed this pod. So happy I stumbled across this on Twitter today. Thank you, so much 🫶🏾
  • Bookgirl ww
    Fluff, no actual advice
    They talk around issues but don’t actually teach you how to heal. After listening to their fluffy episode on 58. Are you holding onto resentment? I’ve decided to cancel my membership in their program because it just highlighted the fact they don’t really ever show you how to heal. They just talk about buzzwords like trauma, healing, inner child, and they talk about why it’s important to heal but never talk about specific action steps to take to actually do the work to heal. No thanks.
  • agh346
    Worth it
    They are so true to their craft here and I love every piece of knowledge I have received from them. Also check out there INSTAGRAM YOUTUBE AND PODCAST
  • Leigh Erickson
    Service to humanity
    This show is beautiful In every way. Perfect for healing trauma and living in a spiritual perspective. Thank you for your service to humanity ❤️
  • laughingluna
    I really wanted to like this podcast
    I really wanted to like this podcast…… I’ve been following Nicole’s writings for awhile and find the way she presents her work very helpful and well articulated. I also love listening to her voice, which feels very grounded and clear. Listening to Jenna on the other hand is a different experience. Her voice comes across as somewhat forceful, anxious, with rapid speech - she doesn’t seem to be breathing much - It feels stressful listening to her. Perhaps this will get better over time and a more complimentary flow between their energies will develop. For now, I will stick to Nicole’s writings.
  • Chrissybabe1084
    Life changing!!!!
    The amount of healing this has given me is so profound! For a single mother who desperately wants to heal my inner child so I can be a better mother, friend & partner, this podcast has been invaluable. It’s so hard to find time for active inner healing while raising children & this podcast has been life changing!! Thank you so much for everything you do!! ❤️
  • hwin77179
    So much chatter
    The language and the excessive words are absolutely nerve wracking. I am made neurotic just listening. Take a breath, slow down, tell yourself something like, may I be calm. May I be happy. Please look at this. You are making a new problem while trying to fix an old one.
  • kbeatle
    Absolutely amazing
    I relate so much to both. It was so relatable when Nicole shared how she wanted to puke when Jenna was being nice. Uck! The last few episodes have been hitting home. I love the personal experiences shared and challenges. It helps connect those dots for myself and what I’ve read. Also love how the steps are normally expressed or things to consider and say to yourself. Episodes 47, 49, 50, 52-54 have been amazing. Thanks ladies ♥️
  • DietsSuck
    If you’re on the fence, go for it
    This podcast brings in so many different dynamics of healing from a place of balance and self awareness. Not shame. Not criticism. Not faux care. Genuine messages from genuine experiences that allow you the choice to see yourself in a way of compassion with action.
  • poolquintine
    life changing!
    my life has been changed since listening to these episodes
  • mylifeisacircus
    Brutally honest and informative
    I love these women! They feed my soul. Every episode is therapy to me and I love how raw and honest they are about themselves and their journeys. Makes me feel not so alone. We’re all going though a lot of stuff.
  • Riley.oboyle
    Keep Going!
    This is the only podcast I keep up with these days. I’ve been following since they started going through the book “How to Do the Work”, and am in awe of watching the unfolding, the blooming, the spreading of their wings as community comments and podcast topics weave one thread over the other. The result is an epic dance of skillfully attuned experts in concert with an adoring, authentic, compassionate, and growth-oriented community. I feel like I’m part of something just to bear witness. Each episode they make the call to leave a review on apple podcasts. I downloaded the app just to leave this review as an artifact of how impacted I have been yo find refuge in this team’s steadfast care. And so to the team I say, thank you. And to you listener who are seeking content, i welcome your eyes and ears to stay, as you feel called to listen.
  • rkh11!
    Sad to say I’m disappointed
    I have loved learning from Dr. Nicole LePera for years, the way she presents information has always really resonated with me and continues to be extremely helpful on Instagram and other podcasts she’s been a guest on. However, with this podcast I am a little disappointed in that the way the information comes through feels very different than the way I’ve heard her speak as a guest on other podcasts. I don’t hear her talk about practical application as much as I have in the past, and part of that I think is the influence of Jenna’s style of podcasting. I’m not a huge fan of the way it often seems that Jenna center’s conversations around herself for long periods of time. I don’t say this to be offensive, I think that she’s trying to be relatable and that probably helps people. For me though, it becomes distracting and hard to follow at times. I’ll keep following along because I sincerely want to keep learning but I have found it very difficult to get through full episodes for these reasons. In my opinion, this podcast would be far better if it was only Nicole.
  • Kills app
    A heartfelt thank you to Dr. Nicole
    As a weekly listener, I’ve thoroughly enjoyed the podcast as I worked through Nicole’s book over the last 8 months. (Side note: It took me that long to read because it’s SO jam packed with healing practices and information, I needed a lot of time to digest it all. Highly recommend.) Unconsciously, I had been avoiding episode 46: how to reconnect with someone, I think because I’m much still in my cocoon phase of healing and learning to trust myself. Well, I accidentally (thanks, autoplay) made it to the end of the episode and Nicole spoke about honoring the curiosity that it takes to get yourself to press play, to do the work, to unlearn your patterns and habits. Just as I was flooded with emotions finishing her book, hearing her speak and honor my bravery to heal myself flooded me with emotions. I can’t thank this crew, specifically Nicole and Jenna, for creating this content and space for me to continue my healing. I look forward to my time with you via the podcast each week. Thank you!!
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